Woof

Fuck Yeah

Fuck yeah for amazing, incredible, mind blowing, body melting sex. 

Half Price Books Wreckage

Yeah. That happened. 

House Warming :-) :-)

I went to a house warming party on Saturday. It was a blast. There was a theme, it was superheroes and villains. I dressed up as a My Little Pony sort of character, the original concept was Rainbow Brites horse...couldn't find a white outfit in time. Boo. Anyway, so I'm just a rainbow pony. It was cute. 

I got my disco dancing orc date on my arm...

And...HitGirl fighting and drinking by my side!! 

The party was incredibly fun, I drank too much cranberry vodka and danced a little crazy to 80's New Wave but hey...when one is dressed like a rainbow pony...what else are you gonna do?

Farewell all, sleep awaits. 

Happy

So I'm in a pretty happy place. It's not just because of you...but you make me happy...you add happiness to my day in amazing ways. I love talking with you, laughing with you, joking with you, cuddling with you, watching silly movies together, cooking with you...I love that if I'm having a rough day you share your sour skittles with me...you have me addicted to your laugh and your beard and staring in your eyes and kissing your lips and when your arms wrap completely around my waist and chest when we lay next to one another. 

So if you see this...

Winning

Blech

Well I just had my 33rd birthday. Nothing really feels different...

Still single. 

Haha. I'm beginning to think that I'm always going to be single. Just wondering if there is a man out there who also feels like he is missing his other half and hoping to find her one day...I'm hoping it'll be me. 

A friend asked me last week what I had accomplished at the age of 32. I realized that it wasn't much. Though I did work more on my dinks...and I have gotten responses about them...made some bucks and some people happy (hopefully)...I need to set up my Etsy account and really start sending them out. Anyway...back to the daily grind. 

Clowny Clown Clown

They Live!!

So I got commissioned from a friend to do a They Live inspired necklace :-) this is my progress so far. So flipping stoked as of right now...

Getting started 

Almost done

I fucking love it and I hope she and her husband love it too! Three more pieces to go and then it's baking time! 

To the future

70's future David & his wife 

mmmmm...hmmm...

This makes me sad. 

Family

Oh. Just some stuff.

Chucky. Tiffany. Glen.

These were a lot of fun to do...the colors blended really well! I'm not ashamed to talk about how awesome a job with the coloring I did. Chucky looks awesome! I just wish they were bigger :-( but I am going to do them again...Bigger! Better! I am so excited for then. I don't know if anyone will buy them but at this point I don't care. 

Ok bedtime. 

My body is a broken down temple

I deserve

When I last saw you, I brought home with me loads of good feelings, smiles, a warm heart & some shirts you gave me. When we ended I took those shirts and reconstructed them to suit me...to make them about me and not you. And now that we are once again over I see them hanging in my closet and I just don't want to even look at them. The shirts alone bring up feelings I don't want to feel anymore. I'm packing them away, I won't trash them. 

But...

I deserve better.

Truth

sleep aid

man oh man i wish i had some sleep aid...it would be so nice to just drift off into some deep sleep...i need a good deep sleep. maybe some nighttime cold medicine (?) i also should have bought some milk because i forgot i had some fruit loops. 
good news! this friend of mine is helping me get my jewelry out and about! he said he has a couple people who are very interested in some earrings ive made. im really pumped!
ok. bed time. 

Sad sack

I am so tired of this crap. I know people move on but I hate seeing those who have betrayed me or broken my heart happy. I just hate it. I guess I'm a bitter girl. I don't know. The ex of mine seems to have found his soul mate which doesn't bother me that much because we didn't share years together. He just drug me around for years and years. Shane...the love I had for almost 7 years...the man I thought I was going to marry...he seems to have moved on...that hurts. I know we aren't meant to be together but still...I want that happiness again...I want to be with someone till the end...the asshole from Chicago...he dropped me again! He did the same thing twice! WHAT IS WRONG WITH HIM??? How does he expect to go through life being such a pussy?? Not going after his dreams, hiding behind others and not taking responsibility for his own actions. It's just such a waste. I'm gonna be honest, I loved that idiot. That fucking idiot. I just feel lost. I feel lost without him. I know I'll survive without these people...but I just want someone to be with. 

Fuck. Here I am again, sad.

once again

well once again i stand here broken hearted...fuck. i feel like an asshole. i feel like an asshole for falling for your shit again. im sorry but thats just not how you treat a person you love. its just not. i guess you throw the word love around like its nothing...i dont. i only say it when i mean it. i should have known you were going to do this shit again. i should have fucking known. you always cancelling your trips down here to see me. you drinking all the time even though i told you it made me feel uncomfortable. you never sending off my care packages because you saying you were too busy. fuck that. its laziness pure and simple. that or its you just being miserable and unhappy in your own life. i could have helped you. i loved you even though you were going through crap in your own life. but instead of using the love i have to give...you push me away...

AGAIN. ITS FUCKING BULLSHIT THE WAY YOU HAVE DONE THIS TWICE TO US. TO ME. HOW MUCH HURT CAN YOU FUCKING PUT ME THROUGH?? A LOT APPARENTLY. HOW DARE YOU NOT REPLY TO MY MESSAGES OF LOVE AND SUPPORT FOR YOU! HOW FUCKING DARE YOU. I LOVED YOU AND YOU JUST THREW ME ASIDE. AGAIN. AGAIN. AGAIN. AGAIN. AGAIN.

Feeling content

I worked on this little ditty earlier. Pretty happy about it. 

It's a Bundy Heart. I have a whole bunch more that are gonna be worked on soon. Pretty happy with this one. Dahmer, Ramirez, Fish, Manuela & Daniel Ruda & a few more. I think they would be a hit :-) 

Ok dreamland awaits me.