Sad sack

I am so tired of this crap. I know people move on but I hate seeing those who have betrayed me or broken my heart happy. I just hate it. I guess I'm a bitter girl. I don't know. The ex of mine seems to have found his soul mate which doesn't bother me that much because we didn't share years together. He just drug me around for years and years. Shane...the love I had for almost 7 years...the man I thought I was going to marry...he seems to have moved on...that hurts. I know we aren't meant to be together but still...I want that happiness again...I want to be with someone till the end...the asshole from Chicago...he dropped me again! He did the same thing twice! WHAT IS WRONG WITH HIM??? How does he expect to go through life being such a pussy?? Not going after his dreams, hiding behind others and not taking responsibility for his own actions. It's just such a waste. I'm gonna be honest, I loved that idiot. That fucking idiot. I just feel lost. I feel lost without him. I know I'll survive without these people...but I just want someone to be with. 

Fuck. Here I am again, sad.